2009 School Year Starter

As we grow, it seems that the world is different. Each day we see things that weren’t there yesterday, and we experience differently than we did in the past. Still, the world is in fact the same. Yes there are new technologies that arise, but beyond these innovations lie the truth that the world is the same as it were 10, 20, even 100 years ago; it is we who have changed, how we view the world and what we are now able to perceive as we experience more and more of it.

As of now, I see that the farce of life is indeed everywhere. I see a macrocosmic satire brought about by the malice of man, the demon child’s heart in each of us, the urge to do what is good, fail at it, but still trying our very best at it, and the meaninglessness of it all apart from love. It’s silly that most of us do find ourselves in the same situation over and over again.

Maybe the problem doesn’t lie on others around us, but in us. Maybe we have not yet learned what we need to learn because of our own stubbornness. I have yet to learn the world. I have yet to understand the world. Not understanding is terrible, but not being understood is just as awful. I hope you understand and no one really does. Next time it will be me.

Babyfingers n' Babytoes!

I have read somewhere once before from a Chopra book that "Love doesn't come from the heart but from the soul".

The heart is but a symbol of this, because the heart is the most volatile of organs. It is involuntary and it is the first organ that can reveal truth of feeling as expressed by the body. But in essence, the heart is nothing more than a yardstick of the extent of affectation in a particular situation, and in itself cannot produce love, nor give it. It is however, the representation of our humanity, and of the fickleness of human love. It is the soul that loves immortally.

It is lacking therefore to say I love you with all my heart because this is fleeting, much like the voracious drive of lust, the heart is slave to nothing more than the whims of our fickle nature at any given time. It cannot sustain us because it is exhaustible through disillusionment and boredom. To fully love someone should therefore come from a bottomless source where nothing can corrupt nor consume it.

I would start with the soul. The soul is immortal. It is with the soul that one can communicate with God, and receive God's love for us, replenishing each day with an overflowing source of love for us to give. For love to be immortalized and not be limited within the boundaries of human weakness, one must be able to tap into the immortality of his soul and draw love from this immortal fount which comes from God:

37Now on the final and most important day of the Feast,
Jesus stood, and He cried in a loud voice,

"If any man is thirsty, let him come to Me and drink!

38He who believes in Me [who cleaves to and trusts in and relies on Me]
as the Scripture has said, From his innermost being shall flow [continuously]
springs and rivers of living water." (John 7:37-38, AMP).
To be able to love fully, one must channel love from God as the immortal source through one's soul. This would release the lover from the transitoriness of human love alone. In here love shifts between immortal and human, depending on the circumstances in the relationship between the lover and the beloved.

Human love is momentary rapture- unable to sustain itself and is impatient and impulsive. On the other hand, Immortal love is the key to the stability of what is felt and patience. Patience draws power from hope. Hope is renewed through faith in God's providence. When this cycle is completed, love is perfected in it's immortality, hence it's eternity, because to be immortal means forever, and few are able to love this way. Just look at the brokenness all around and see what I mean.

Then there must also be harmony between the heart and the soul to be able to love fullest. The heart symbolizing our mortality and the soul representing our eternity, their union is paramount. Without this perfect mixture, love can never be completed.

To be able to do this however, one must possess a heart and soul that may be scarred but must not at all be broken. This is very important because a break in either can yield suffering on both the lover and the beloved, because when this happens, love is corrupted from the beginning and can never be made perfect. Before one loves then, he must make sure that he is freed from whatever brokenness of the past: he must be remade.

If a man should give his heart, he should ascertain that he links his soul to it. Then there maybe hope for the relationship still. This is what I believe.

When I gave my heart,it loves from my soul. This truly is everything I can give to anyone and I am in a mixture of emotions, all of which are in hopes for my beloved who deserves nothing less from me inasmuch as to love is the duty of every man:

"However,
each one of you also must love his wife
as he loves himself, and
the wife must respect
her husband." Ephesians 5:3 (NIV)


In here, the man's love is bound to his responsibility to give love, and the woman's love is manifested through her respect and acceptance.

This is what I believe in. This difference that equates complement. Love expressed differently, according to what has been, is, and will always be; this is divine standard. As such, it is beyond refute.
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*Read also previous blog posts entitled Valentine Equivocal Blasphemy and Lust AND Love

Me and The College of Medicine

Who would've thought I'd take up Medicine after having graduated from Nursing? God works in mysteriously wonderful ways. After 4 months of crisis at last things are starting to get clearer for me.

I thank God for Ann. We are the only freshmen from La Salle-Bacolod. Represent! :D

For My Angel

Spend all your time waiting
for that second chance
for a break that would make it okay
there's always one reason
to feel not good enough
and it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction
oh beautiful release
memory seeps from my veins
let me be empty
and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

so tired of the straight line
and everywhere you turn
there's vultures and thieves at your back
and the storm keeps on twisting
you keep on building the lie
that you make up for all that you lack
it don't make no difference
escaping one last time
it's easier to believe in this sweet madness oh
this glorious sadness that brings me to my knees

in the arms of the angel
fly away from here
from this dark cold hotel room
and the endlessness that you fear
you are pulled from the wreckage
of your silent reverie
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort there
you're in the arms of the angel
may you find some comfort here

Revelation

The message of the Bible is love. It starts in the very beginning with God's Love and ends with God's love. Love is enough. Love is all we need.

What is love? It's being secure. It's being sure. It is being safe. It is giving. It is Passion and purity. It is trust and entrusting. It is charity. It is selfless. It is letting go. It is life.

Love is Christ Crucified.